Tuesday, 15 December 2009
I was supposed to blog this post yesterday but I couldnt connect the line so yeah.
I was in my car yesterday on the way for lunch. Suddenly,I thought of you and I dont know why.I thought of how we used to spend our time together, I had lots of memories with you that I cant forget about. I tried to forget but its hard,really.I lied to myself that I dont like you anymore, I even lied to my friends but actually I still like you. No matter where I go I'll think of you. I just want to tell you that I MISS YOU.I miss those days where we used to hang out together. I remember there was once we went to the cinema to watch HSM3. Inside the cinema was so cold, but you holded my hands to keep me warm. You used to call me every night, the way you talked to me I will never forget,you were so sweet and soft.And I thought that you and I could be together but I was wrong. You played me! *sighs* I shouldnt blame you, Its my fault! If I did not like you at the first place things like this wouldnt happen. I should pretend that I did not know the truth. WHY DID I HAVE TO BLOW IT UP?! I was so stupid,I thought that you like me but the truth was YOU'RE NOT. But why didnt you tell me? WHY?! After I knew the truth, you never called me again.I was like 'how am I gonna sleep without you calling me every night? how?!' I felt like dying you know?The nights without your calls were so miserable for me but i told myself I must get use of it,I MUST! I cried every night,hoping you to call. I did so much for you but what did i get in return? I didnt expect you to buy stuff for me or treat me for a movie and stuff you know? What did you do? You used me,played me and you even made fun of me and I didnt even say a word.I think I gotta stop here. Anyway,Hope you're happy with your girlfriend now.And I'll try to let go.I just need some time.
I'm still missing you,CLS.
And we're not meant to be.
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